PR1103

PR1103 Pharmacy Practice 1..

..just murdered me..

BRUTALLY.

Rant Rant Rant

I just can't wait for finals to be over.

Been mugging everyday and if you think that's good enough, think again.. because the next day if you ask me what I've read, I wouldn't remember. That sucks, no? :/

A mental block definitely sucks big time. I HATE IT. Everything is inside your head, but you're just having a hard time trying to recall what is it.

Sometimes, it may occur to you that whatever you read or memorize just won't go in. Well, that's because you've been studying for too damn long. Your brain is practically saturated. Oh damnit. :/

FINALS FASTER COME AND GO!! BOO! :(

On second thought, I DON'T WANNA SIT FOR FINALS, CAN??? :( So don't come!!

*slaps self*

Oh, don't be silly! You know that won't happen unless you're planning to fail all your modules!

On a brighter note, I can't wait to go hunting for clothes, bags and shoes! I want a bandage skirt and bodycon dress! Plus, I still haven't managed to find the bag that I really really want! I see people carrying different designs in uni!

GOD BLESS ME!

Enough of mental blockages please? :( Can hardly take them.. They'll just scrape all my confidence (not like I have much to start of with, anyway), positive thoughts and motivation!

I should learn how to meditate.

I'm so sorry that you guys have to read ranty posts of mine. I CAN'T HELP IT!

P/S: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY RITA! :)

Sorry

What happened today wasn't what I expected..

It just happened.

I'm sorry that it had turned out to be that way.

But, I'm glad that we're okay. :)

OH NO!

As we're moving closer to Week 13, finals are drawing even closer.

SHIT.

Work Work Work

Phew, finally got over and done with my presentation and AY1104 Anatomy CA2!

I feel like I just threw a few kgs off my shoulders although I still have a lot of weight on them right now.

Last week was crazy! I changed my slides so many times due to my Professor's demanding critics. I was communicating with him via email throughout the entire week! But, I'm glad it went well and I thought he was rather patient with me and he helped A LOT. :) At least I know that I wasn't the only one who had to do so many drafts before the final presentation. In fact, all of us went through the same thing.

Now, Physicochemical Principles of Drug Action (PPDA) tutorial! The name damn chun right?! But it's such a difficult module. -__-"

Ooh, I also have a two page paper to do about my presentation.

Boooooooo :(

Frustrated!

Oh God, I thought that I was done and over with Physics ever since I left Form 6 but looks like I'm wrong!

Once again, Physics and Chean have been reunited! Is this a sign from God that I should stick to Physics all my life? NOOOOOOOOOO!! :( Okay, sorry, pardon the dramaness.

Anyway, I have a final assignment to do which involves linking non-biological machines to biological machines. Geddit geddit?

Hmm, it's pretty much like connecting Physics with Biology. My topic is on computers and therefore, I will have to link computers to biological processes. Oh man, this is frustrating. This has been bugging me for a few days now and I felt like I had to vent out all my frustrations here. BOO. :/

I hope I'll be able to think of something, I'm slowly starting to see the link between computers and biology but I would still have to come up with something fresh and new based on these two elements and concepts. This is where Bioengineering students come in handy. ;) I told Andy (he's a Bioengineering student) about my assignment yesterday so that he could clear a bit of my doubts but he couldn't help much because I have to invent/create a new biological machine! Wowzers.

On top of that, I would have to prepare a presentation consisting of 5 slides and a two page paper article!

I sent multiple emails to my professor. I hope he's not annoyed. Hehehe.

Wish me luck!! :/

GAH.

It's getting crazier over here.

But, I'll manage.

Things are starting to fall into the right place, bit by bit.

Drowning

So many thoughts ran through my mind in such a short span of time today. Everything is jumbled up in my mind and it still is..

Things are happening too fast and it's going beyond my control. I'm losing my grip and touch of things. Why is this happening? I feel so unorganized and powerless.

Life isn't as simple as I'd wish to think. There are many things that are unexplainable in life. There are days when you feel like you're on cloud nine and there are days when you just wanna bury yourself six feet under.

How can something you know that's right just simply go wrong? How can you fall drastically from the top of the mountain when you've climbed up so high just to see the beautiful view over the other side of the mountain? How come you've worked so hard for something and you still end up with nothing? How come it's never enough? How much is "enough"? How many failures do you have to go through in order to achieve what you want?

There are times when I just feel that this isn't the place where I belong. In fact, it happened a lot of time. There is probably someone out there with better potential that deserves my place. Life sure isn't the same anymore. The environment here is different although Singapore is just right beside West Malaysia. There is a distinct difference that can be observed and I feel like I'm gonna get wiped out.. That isn't a very pleasant feeling.

My level of optimism has never been high and with the current situation now, it's never gonna increase. But, I must try. There's no way I can turn back time, I just gotta live through it and accept each day with an open heart.

I tend to think a lot. I just can't help it.

I want back MY LIFE.

If you're wondering whether I'm emo, YES I AM.

I'm on the verge of breaking down..